I've been wanting to share about my experience but oh LAWD where do I begin. I know I do this a lot but I didn't start this blog til Ardo was 10 months old. There are things I never shared on here about the beginning days of mommy hood. So here goes...When Ardo was born, he was in the NICU for a few days. I didn't know I had the power to say, I want my child to have breast only. At least the next day, I didn't know, so I let the Dr's and nurses give Ardo a bottle of formula and pumped milk. When Ardo came home I tried to breastfeed him. I had seen so many movies and read so many blogs, I just figured he would latch right away with no problem. Well there was a problem, a big ole problem. He had nipple confusion and didn't want to latch. He didn't want to latch, he wanted milk now and I was really scared of him crying to long. I would try and try and nothing! I reluctantly and unknowingly became an exclusive pumper. Can I tell you the life of an exclusive pumper is so hard! I was always so worried about being away from my pump for too long and Ardo was also hard to soothe. He didn't take a paci so I was always pumping, so he could have milk. It was stressful and when he turned 6 months he wanted more milk (which now actually I think my milk was just balanced) and I felt I wasn't producing enough, so the day I needed to supplement with formula, I felt I did as much as I could and I started to wean myself from pumping and started Ardo on formula. It took me soooo long to get over the fact that I couldn't breastfeed the way I had always imagined. I couldn't believe it didn't work out. Every blog and every instagram made me feel like I was the only one that had "failed." I swear every other person I knew had absolutely no problems.
When I became pregnant with James I knew I didn't want a repeat. I started by asking Laura for good literature. I realized I really needed to educate myself on how breastfeeding works. She suggested The Womanly Art of Breastfeeding as a go to guide. I read the book cover to cover and even continue to refer to it with any questions I STILL may have. Since I was on bedrest, I also took advantage to asking the nurses any questions I might have and because I saw my Dr every single day (a perk of bedrest, I love her) I continued to ask her as well. When James was born and needed to be in the NICU I took action. From day one I expressed to the nurses and his NICU Dr I want to breasfeed as soon as possible! To ensure my milk supply the night James was born, I started pumping, I got very little colostrum, but one thing I had already learned from Ardo was that I needed to pump to be able to breastfeed. I pumped round the clock every 2-3 hours. Rarely going longer than that. When it was time to breastfeed, I immediately even without being told made an appointment with the lactation consultant they had available at the hospital. I breastfed as much as I could and still pumped after to make sure I was emptied so my body knew I needed more milk. I did this routine til James came home. I was very confident in the hospital because James' latch seemed strong and I needed less and less help from the nurses. I bought my brest friend before James left the hospital and I left with a sense of confidence! That is...until I got home.
Ardo spent a lot of time asking me what I'm doing.
I spent my time explaining to him and he thought it was funny…still does.