I hate when I really want to write about something or upload pictures but the time just gets away from me and its like every month I'm starting over with this blog! I've really been wanting to talk about my pregnancy, and a few things about my first pregnancy with Ardo that is changing the course of this baby. I never had the urge to share about my experience before but for some reason, lately I've been itching too.
When I was pregnant with Ardo everything up until 32 weeks was fabulous. I hardly had any sickness, I gained weight very slowly and steadily, I wasn't really tired, everything was perfect. Then at 32 weeks I mentioned to my dr I was starting to have contractions, she checked me and I was having preterm labor. My cervix was thinned to about 80% and I was just starting to open, very little, but still at 32 weeks I shouldn't have been. From 32 weeks to 36 1/2 when Ardo was born I was on bedrest and in the hospital. My labor and delivery wasn't ideal, and I felt a great deal of shame about the whole experience. At the time blogs were new to me and I remember reading blog after blog on how glorious and perfect their labors and deliveries and just the whole experience was, it was a tough pill to swallow. It took me a really really long time to overcome that my reality was mine and nothing was going to change it. How I brought Ardo into the world wasn't more important that he was here and healthy. It just wasn't as easy for me to accept that 2 days postpartum, heck even a year post-partum I had that little naggin "ugh" feeling. I am happy and grateful to say that after 2 years, I did accept it, and now when I tell my story, if anyone asks, I just tell it, because it is mine, and I did everything under the sun for that little guy. Whenever I think about my bedrest and having to stay in the hospital for 3 full weeks, I wonder just how I did it. I didn't let my hospital stay get to me, my mom and sisters came every single day so I'm sure that made life easier and I just knew that I was doing what I had to do for my little guy. What I went through with Ardo has helped me with this pregnancy. I saw the Dr right away and immediately from the beginning we discussed my spontaneous preterm labor. What made me fall in love with her is she had a game plan for me from my very first appointment. I was 6 weeks and already preterm labor was on my mind. She explained to me I would see her as often as I needed and I would have more ultrasounds than I did the first time. She told me she was going to keep a closer eye on me and one additional precaution I would be taking is when I hit 16 weeks I would start my weekly progesterone injections. (I'm going to write more about my progesterone injections now that I've gotten a few, the ups and downs) I am definitely the kinda person who sits well with future plans. Right now I see the Dr on a normal basis every 4 weeks, but my ultrasounds have been a little more frequent. I've already had 3 ultrasounds at 19 weeks, but those check ups and seeing sweet baby is the best. For someone like me it's probably better eases my nerves a bit, I've just started feeling little wiggles too, I love that!
Don't mind that lamp behind me, mom took this picture because she was excited to see my bump.