Hey folks, okay so I'm not trying to beat this subject to death but I have to be honest. I haven't been in a blogging mood lately. My last post was a week ago and I was complaining about Ardo and his wonderful new sleeping habit. Because of his sleeping habit, I've been so tired lately. Really tired. It seems my lack of sleep is really starting to catch up with me. I think because Ardo is older and has much more energy, when he wakes up throughout the night and then he wants to play throughout the day it takes a lot out of me. In the months prior to this sleep change after work we'd take Ardo to the park, let him get some energy out, feed him, bath him, storytime and then bedtime. Once bedtime hit I would do what I could around the house and then some blogging. But these past few weeks, I haven't picked up my computer, at all. I have no creative juices flowing right now. And I have to say I hate this feeling. This phase of waking up at almost 19 months feels like a killer. I've mentioned before when Ardo was a newborn and waking up on a 24 hour schedule, I was fine. I was never super tired, I guess I just expected it so I dealt with it fine. For a year I woke up in the middle of the night, and rarely was I tired the next day. But, now, now it's a different story. Thank you to everyone who keeps encouraging me that this is just a phase and it will pass. I was sharing with a friend recently that after 19 months I still feel as tho I'm trying to figure out how to be a working mom. You know whats crappy about being a working mom when your toddler won't sleep, YOU HAVE TO BE AT WORK AT A CERTAIN TIME. On the days Ardo doesn't sleep and I see the time ticking away, all I can think about is I have to wake up for work in 5 hours, then 4 hours, then 3, then before I know I'm in the shower getting ready for a full day. Once I get to work I have to ... you know, work! I'm thinking, I'm expected to function like a regular human being when I'm actually a zombie with lip gloss on?
Okay I promise this is the last tired post from me.....for awhile. =)
I felt a post like this would recharge me, and honestly just writing these words out, I think it's already working.